Not trying to make an overly big deal of things, but am thinking about which is the most appropriate way to convey my feelings at the completion of university, my degree, my student life, in roughly four days. (OhgodihavetoreviseformyexaminFOURDAYSbuggerbuggerbugger)

Maybe I liken it to the sort of feeling when, you’re slumped on the sofa, and you want to change the channel but the remote’s over there. And you’re like, well I ought to go over there, but i can’t be bothered. Or maybe, you walk past a homeless man on the street and think, I should feel sorry and/or give money, but i’m not. What I hope it isn’t, is the mid-life crisis feeling – sort of, oh dear god i’m forty-something years old stuck in a dead end job with wispy grey bits sprouting through my scalp and a paunch for a belly. WHERE DID THE TIME GO??

I hope I look back fondly, but without too much regret or immense longing for the past. Everything looks so much better in hindsight. I remember moaning about how its time to move on, and dammit it is – its just hard not to move forward without keeping a near-death grip on the past, like if you let go, you’ll start to panic and lament ever leaving it.

There’s one exam left, Advanced Corporate Finance which sounds harder than it does. But I’d like to tell people I take it because they get a glazed over look in their eyes which (in my head at least) reflects ‘oh my you’re so clever and awesome and generally, swell. Be my friend’. But yes if you took it, you’d find it bloody easy too. I’m certain to get a 2.1, but this is my chance to uppit and maybe snatch a first in this module. *Glances nonchalantly at the revision notes next to the laptop*.

It has been calculated that I need an AVERAGE of 77.5% to get a 1st Class Honours – so yes people, if you were wondering, little cousin/sister/friend will certainly not get one of those. On the bright side, calculations show that I need to fail each and every module i’ve taken this year to get a 2.2. Crazy numbers, remind me never to be a banker.

Oh wait…